why free?

why freeI walked away from a good job with great benefits to start my own business – The Free Mama, LLC. But why? Growing up with entrepreneurial parents, I had always considered what it would be like to work for myself someday. If I’m honest, the risk of it all completely freaked me out. What if I couldn’t make ends meet? What if I disappointed someone? What if I failed? What if?

After I became a mom and returned to the workforce, I was thrilled to be able to continue to grow professionally while learning the ropes as a new parent. But the older my kids got, the more I began to resent working for someone else who told me where to be and at what time and what my goals should be. Each day I felt more and more guilty about being a grumpy parent by the time I got home from work and my husband who felt nearly invisible as he slipped to the bottom of my priorities list.

This wasn’t what I wanted my life to look like. I wanted the freedom to be at classroom parties, to prep dinner and fold laundry before my kids {and I} reach meltdown mode, and to occasionally surprise my husband at work with lunch. I wanted the freedom to determine my own business goals, to set work hours that work for me and my family, and to work from wherever I wanted.

Around the time my son turned one, I had this light-bulb moment while driving home from work. I realized that all of the ‘what ifs’ had continued to fill my mind, because I hadn’t yet identified the reason why I wanted to work for myself. A reason that was so incredibly and tear-jerkingly worth it that I’d be willing to do whatever it takes to not fail. Frantically I wrote it down on a notepad I keep in my car between stop lights:

  1. I want the freedom to work for myself, from my home, for my own dreams.
  2. I want more free time to spend with my family, my friends, and myself.
  3. I want to help other moms find a way to do it, too.

Simply put: I want the freedom to do what I want, when I want and with whom I want. The best part about my ‘why’ is that I’m willing to work for it! This mama knows that freedom doesn’t come, well, for free.